Merry Christmas!!

Wow, what a week this has been.

It has generally been a good week, except for today. Today kinda sucks.
We had our 'family' Christmas on Wednesday. It was the only day this week
that we could all get together. I was very happy that my son was able to make
it home. He left yesterday, as he had to work today. I feel bad for him, having
to work on Christmas, but that is part of working in a hospital. Hopefully he should
be off for the holiday next year. The youngest daughter is with her husband and
children, doing things with his family today. The other one, she and her kids are
doing things with the current boyfriend and his family.

So, that leaves nothing for today. Big meal with the family, opening presents, etc, etc,
all done already. So, now what?? Never had a Christmas day without my family here.
Well, hubby is here, but it's just Not the same. I don't like this at all!!!

He brought up the idea of going to a movie, but in this little hick town, the theater is
closed today. Took a ride around town just for the hell of it, and even the Chinese
joint is closed! It's a good thing we didn't plan on that for dinner.

I think I did well fixing my plate at xmas dinner. Hubby wanted turkey AND ham.
And of course, all of the other things that go with that. But, I only had ONE small
plate. A little bit of a few things. Didn't try everything. There was not stacking, piles,
layering or anything else going on on my plate. And, NO second helpings! Very happy
about that.

Making pea soup with ham, and turkey soup today. I just want all of the left-overs
gone. Tried sending as much stuff home with the kids as I could. We will be having
one of the soups in a little bit for dinner tonight, and some of the other one tomorrow.
The rest of whats left is going into the freezer. Will look forward to warm soup on the
long, cold winter days and nights that are coming soon.

Peeked at the scale today. Not very happy at all. I blame the fact that I didn't make
it to the gym much this week, and the eggnog I shared with my son. I believe that was
my downfall this week, that damn eggnog. And I'm sooo pissed about it because I don't
have the mindset yet to not do these stupid things. I didn't even think about what I was
doing at the time. I just drank it, like we always do. And then a little while later, that
little lite bulb went off in my head, and the voice said 'what the hell did you just do'?!?!
OMG!! Chugged water the rest of the evening after that, but still , the damage was done,
and I am Still pissed about it. Really need to work on being more mindful of what I
consume.

Still drinking lots of water. Still peeing like crazy. Just once, I would like to sleep through
the night, without having to get up to pee!

Hope everyone is having a great holiday with family and friends.
(Put the fork down!!)

Hope Santa was good to everyone!

~AL~

Moving On

Not a whole lot new going on to report.

Getting ready for the Christmas holiday. Been kinda busy with that.

I think I have joined a 'challenge'. I also think I received a badge for it in my e-mail, but I'm not sure how to get it from there to here. Still somewhat challenged with this whole blog set-up thing.

Have been on the fence about this 'challenge' for some time now, always chickening out about joining. Then I would decide to do it, and miss the deadline for entering. Then, I was given another chance, and jumped at it.

Why am I doing this now?? I suck, my life sucks, my blog sucks, and my weight loss efforts Really suck. I need help. And if there is only one thing on this list that can be fixed, I'll take it! I am hoping that will lead to the rest of the things getting better. I feel a more positive attitude these last few days. Still waiting to get some info as to what I should and shouldn't be doing though.

Still getting to the gym at least five days a week. Yay!! Had a training session again today. Feeling good from that as well. Kinda bummed though, found out that next week is my last work out with my trainer. Boy, those 12 weeks sure went by fast. He did mention maybe throwing in a free session after the holidays, just to check up on me. Yeah, I need that! And I will still be going to the gym every week after that, just as I do now. I am not making much progress at this, but I know that I would make none at all, or even back-slide the other way if I didn't go or even keep trying.

I am not a quitter! I won't give up!!

In case I don't get back at ya'll later this week, Happy Holidays to everyone!!

~AL~

ENOUGH ALREADY!!!!!

So, unless you have been in a cave or a comma for the last two days, I'm sure you have all heard about the tragic hostage situation/shooting at the high school in Marinette, WI.

This is where I live. Usually a quite town, about an hour north of Green Bay. On the border of Upper Michigan. On the shore of beautiful Lake Michigan.

Yes, what happened was very tragic. No, it did not effect me personally at the time. It did effect a lot of my friends and neighbors, and their families.

The story has been on Good Morning America (and I'm sure all of the other morning shows), CNN, and even Inside Edition. I am also aware of an article in the New York Times. Like I said, Everyone must know about it.

What really pissed me off today, Two Days after the incident, while on my way to the gym this morning, I passed two mobile news crews. It's only about a mile and a half drive from my house to the gym. But, SERIOUSLY!!! Why are you all still here?!?!?!

Yes, it happened Monday. Yes, school was closed on Tuesday. NO, you don't need to still be here today, on Wednesday!!

You don't need to get the reactions from the children as they go back "for the first day after this horribly tragic event"!!

What you do need to do is get the fuck out of our town!!

Our community and mainly our children need to be allowed to move on from this. We need to put this behind us, so that the healing process can begin. We can't do that as long as you are all still here dragging it up!

Please, just go away!!

We need our own people of the community to be able to grieve, and heal and move on. We can't do that with all of the cameras on us, sending this all over the U.S.

We will do this for ourselves, with each other.

For the sake of our children, please go away and leave us alone!!!!!