I Don't Even Know What To Call This One.....

Well, first off, I am down one more lb this week. I would like to have seen a bigger number, but I guess as long as it's not a gain, it's still a good number. Have been under a tremendous amount of stress lately, and I have heard that stress causes weight gain, so I suppose that I must still be doing something right with my weight loss efforts.

I am very upset and stressed out about my employment situation. Originally, hubby and I decided that I would stay home for a couple of reasons. First of all, I was just completely miserable being in the truck. Being there is the main reason for my weight gain, and inability to have healthy food choices. And secondly, our mileage kept falling. They were unable to get many good loads, there-for many of us drivers were not making any money. We only get paid for the miles we drive. We don't make any money waiting for them to find us a load, or anything else when the truck is not moving. They have apparently acquired some new accounts, which should mean the ability to get us all some more miles. Since I have been unable to find other employment at this time, hubby has asked me to get back in the truck and give it another try. I have been asked to give it three months. If things do not work out in that time, I am free to do what I want at that time.

I am so Not happy about this. Damn economy! There aren't any jobs anywhere. We really do need the money, so I have to do this. Sure hope it works out better this time. Sounds like we will be leaving Friday-ish. I have a lot of things I need to do and to take care of before I leave. It's going to be a busy next couple of days.

I am also upset about the fact that I will not be able to weigh regularly. We would usually be gone for two to three weeks at a time. I will weigh again before we leave, and then every time we get home. I was considering just not doing the whole blog thing anymore, because I really wanted to try to be more consistent, (not that that has been working real well for me lately), but I still need to keep myself accountable. Now more than ever. I don't know when I will be able to weigh or blog from now on, but I do know that it will be every chance I get. Like I said, I need to do this now more than ever. I need to do this for ME.

I have figured out how to get to all of the blogs that I read, on my phone. I can get to mine, too, but I can't seem to find how to post something new to it. If I get that straitened out, I could update that way, but still not a new weight number till I get home and get on the scale. I know from experience that I will not have much time or opportunity to pull out my laptop and do anything on here, but I will try. I know I'm gonna miss this.

Till we meet again, God bless you all. I will be back as soon as I can, and I am hoping it will be with good news.

~AL~

Looking For Louise

Wow, this week has really gotten away from me. Last Monday was my first weigh-in. I guess it went o k. I lost one pound. That is about what I was expecting, since I have been sick, and drinking all that juice. I'm just thrilled that I didn't gain. Still got the darn cough, and still sleeping with the vapor steam thingy every night. It's been over two weeks now, I was really hoping to feel better by now. Hoping for another loss for tomorrows weigh. Even another small one would be nice. At this point I would even take a zero, as long as it's not a gian.

I'm not sure what tomorrow will bring. Have been trying not to obsess about the scale. Been doing my best with the food and exercise this last week, but other then that, it has been a rough week. I have been thinking about what to write for this post (when I would finally find the time to do it, that is). Many thoughts have crossed my mind. Lets just say that things are not going well here right now. I have decided not to write about it at this time. I wrote that title for today, because I feel like Thelma and Louise. I just want to get in the car and drive off the cliff right now. I don't want to get into detail, because I don't want pitty from anyone. How-ever, I will ask that you pray for me. Please. I really need to find a job asap. I know it will not solve all of our problems, but it sure would help. And I know that it would help me feel better about myself, too.

Once again, I'm not sure when I'll be able to get back on here to give any updates. But I will weigh tomorrow, and put it up as soon as I have a chance to. God bless you all.

AL