Ummm......

Felt the need to write. Although I'm not sure why.
I don't have anything to say. Been in a massive funk
lately.

Lots of crap going on with-in the family. Doesn't
involve me directly, but yet indirectly I get sucked
into all of the crap. Sooo tired of it all. :(

Having some issues with the new "challenge".
Well, that's not a fair statement. My issues
are more with the challengers, than the
challenge itself. Don't get me wrong, I think
it's great that they all want to get together
and help each other out. That's awesome. But
there HAS to be a better way!! Why must Everyone
keep resending Everything that Everyone else ALREADY
sent?!?! WTF?!?! I got over six-hundred emails in the first
two days. It was so overwhelming that I just deleted them
all. And I feel bad about that. So, now they have a forum, just
for us challengers. Super. So I go there, register and sign in.
Now it brings me to another page to sign in. O K. I keep having
to sign in for about twenty minutes, and finally say--fuck this.
I don't have the time to waste on this shit. I thought I would put
the time in, if it would help me. Um, no. I would rather have spent
that time doing more productive things, like exercising.
My schedule is busy. I have a stupid job with crazy hours. Sometimes
I don't even get the chance to get to my email everyday. Sometimes it is
in the middle of the night, if I'm up and I have a minute to check it.
I don't have an office job, where I am able to sit around on here all day.

Maybe I will try again this weekend, if I have the extra time. Idk.

I guess I did have something to write about after all. Hmm.

Have not been feeling very well lately. Actually it's been going
on for a while now. Probably to long. Finally bit the bullet and
made a doctors appointment. Will be going to see him on Monday.
Hopefully things will start to get better after that.

Guess that's about it for now.
Have a great weekend.
Thanks for listening.

~AL~

Update

Just a quick post to update my progress for this week.

One more pound gone. Yay!

Not much else going on here. Been pretty tired the past few days. The weather
here has been so dark and gloomy. Finally starting to warm up a bit. Just got out
of the sub - zero temps, only to find out they are coming back again this weekend.
And with more snow. Ugh! Wishing for spring to come quickly!

Exercise has been on track this week, although I really seem to have to push myself
these last few days. Still having some issues with the food on 'the plan'.

Been having a hard time with everything these last several days. Going to blame it on
the weather for now. Not sure what else it could be. Hope I am not coming down with
something. Desperately in need of some sunshine!!

Hope every one is doing well.

~AL~

Moving Along

Weigh in for this week showed another one lb loss. Got to move / change my ticker for the third week in a row. That feels good. Ok, so maybe it isn't moving at a high rate of speed, but it is finally moving consistently. I would like to thank Allan for that. His leadership is going to get me where I want to be. I just need to try harder to get there sooner like I should be able to do.

I guess I didn't really have a 'real' plan before. I just knew that I needed to eat less and move more. Now I have structure in knowing what I Really need to do.

And I own up to the fact that it is my own fault that I am not doing better. I am having some issues with staying with-in the given food guidelines. I realize where the problems are, and I am working on them. I could very easily blame other people. Like the fact that when hubby gets home (he is an over-the-road truck driver), he likes to have a big, home cooked meal. And, why shouldn't he? He deserves it. He has earned it. He is usually gone for about three weeks at a time and then home for a couple of days, and then gone again. But this is one of the slow times of year. It happens every year, right after the holidays. He has only been gone a few days at a time since Christmas, and is home every weekend so far since then. Should be picking up again soon. Usually around the beginning of February. But, anyway, I have been making what he asks for. I just try to make things more healthy now, and I eat less of those things. I make extra steamed veggies and fill up on more of those. It is much easier to stay on track when he is not here. But, still the choices I make are all mine. I can not blame them on anybody else. What I do or don't do is all my own doing.

On the days that I am not 'exactly on plan', I try to compensate with extra water and extra exercise. I figure--2 outta 3?? Not sure if it works that way, but it certainly can't hurt.

Got kinda side tracked from where I started with this today. Gonna go for now. Gotta clear my head. Maybe try this again tomorrow.

Hope everyone is doing well and able to stay on track. I wish you all the best of luck with what-ever you are doing.

~AL~

A Mixed Up Mess

Woke up this morning to hear the snow plow driving by. Again. They have been calling for 'flurries' everyday and every night for the past week, and for the next week. 'Flurries' don't need to be plowed! We are getting way to much snow. I hate this!

I know that to make this diet/lifestyle change thing work, it is as simple and easy as 'move more, eat less'. I know this. For years I thought that if I had some one to tell me 'eat this - don't eat that', that it would help my over-complicating things brain to be able to do this. Now, thanks to Allan, I have that wonderful person. Why is it that I am still struggling? I am kicking ass in the exercise department. I am at the gym at least five days a week. I jog four miles on the treadmill everyday. I do a weight routine usually three times a week, if not more. And I have been doing Allan's challenge exercises everyday since the challenge started. And the water.....Holy Moly, all I do is pee! Consuming above and beyond the minimum everyday. Feeling really good about all of that. Having some issues, however, with the eating twelve hundred calories. My brain feels hungry All the time. And sometimes so does my stomach. Trying to mix up the list a little bit, to find some thing that will work for me, but yet staying with-in the guidelines. Not a happy camper right now, but not giving in or giving up either.

Lost one more pound this week. Would really like to start seeing some bigger numbers for all of my effort.

Almost said 'happy hump day', but then I realized that it's only Tuesday.
Have a great day anyway.
Going to bundle up now to go snow blow the sidewalk and the driveway, again.
Then heading to the gym. Got a late start today. Didn't sleep well last night. Hopefully things will get better.

Enjoy your day, where-ever you are. :)

~AL~

Feeling Better

Haven't been able to write for a bit, been pretty sick. Got the flu last week Sunday night.
Spent the better part of the next five days in the bathroom. After a while, I just gave up
and laid down on the bathroom floor. It was comin out of both ends simultaneously. I don't
think I have ever been that sick for that long in my life. And I pray it never happens again.

Finally started to feel a little bit better this past weekend. Still kinda queasy and nauseated
though. Had to cancel my appointment last week with the trainer. Got rescheduled for this past Monday, for my last session with him. Had a really good workout. And then we reviewed all of the things that we have been doing for the last twelve weeks. Feeling good about all of that. Went to the gym again yesterday, and today. Getting in some really awesome workouts. Even stopped by the pool on the way home today. Spent about 45 minutes in the big pool swimming laps, walking laps around the pool, and even doing squats and lunges in the water. I just love being in the water. (must have been a fish in a former life??) Then about 15 minutes in the hot tub to help relax. Me and my muscles. Feeling pretty good now.

Been somewhat confused as to how my body is reacting to things lately. I did lose a few lbs last week due to the flu, but as I knew would happen, regained most of it as soon as I started to be able to eat and drink again, and actually keep stuff down. So, I re hydrated. I get that. I was expecting that to happen. What I don't understand is why I am not losing more weight then I am. I have one lb to report for this week, so I will change my ticker when I am done here, if I don't forget. I have been eating less, and moving more. So, why no change?? I know my body is changing. I can now fit into xl clothing. So happy about that. There are NO numbers in front of the xl. That is totally awesome! Something seems to be happening.......just not the scale showing a loss. WTF?!?!

I was doing some blog hopping the other night and ran across this. Not sure where I found it, as I was reading several that are new to me. I almost pee'd my pants from laughing so hard. Some guy left a comment that said, and I quote: " one pound of muscle weighs twice as much as one pound of fat" WOW!!! Seriously?!?! I know it's been a 'few' years since I was in school, but a pound is a pound! It doesn't matter what is being weighed! I have one word for you......DUMBASS!! I will Not be going back to that blog, as the author and her friends (other commenter's) all thanked him for his insights and helpfullness. WTF?!?! I think they are all a bunch of dumbasses!!!

I will just be sticking with the blogs that I have been with. There are way too many idiots out there. Learning that blog land is a dark and scary world, full of stupid people!

Hope everyone is having a good week so far.

~AL~

Merry Christmas!!

Wow, what a week this has been.

It has generally been a good week, except for today. Today kinda sucks.
We had our 'family' Christmas on Wednesday. It was the only day this week
that we could all get together. I was very happy that my son was able to make
it home. He left yesterday, as he had to work today. I feel bad for him, having
to work on Christmas, but that is part of working in a hospital. Hopefully he should
be off for the holiday next year. The youngest daughter is with her husband and
children, doing things with his family today. The other one, she and her kids are
doing things with the current boyfriend and his family.

So, that leaves nothing for today. Big meal with the family, opening presents, etc, etc,
all done already. So, now what?? Never had a Christmas day without my family here.
Well, hubby is here, but it's just Not the same. I don't like this at all!!!

He brought up the idea of going to a movie, but in this little hick town, the theater is
closed today. Took a ride around town just for the hell of it, and even the Chinese
joint is closed! It's a good thing we didn't plan on that for dinner.

I think I did well fixing my plate at xmas dinner. Hubby wanted turkey AND ham.
And of course, all of the other things that go with that. But, I only had ONE small
plate. A little bit of a few things. Didn't try everything. There was not stacking, piles,
layering or anything else going on on my plate. And, NO second helpings! Very happy
about that.

Making pea soup with ham, and turkey soup today. I just want all of the left-overs
gone. Tried sending as much stuff home with the kids as I could. We will be having
one of the soups in a little bit for dinner tonight, and some of the other one tomorrow.
The rest of whats left is going into the freezer. Will look forward to warm soup on the
long, cold winter days and nights that are coming soon.

Peeked at the scale today. Not very happy at all. I blame the fact that I didn't make
it to the gym much this week, and the eggnog I shared with my son. I believe that was
my downfall this week, that damn eggnog. And I'm sooo pissed about it because I don't
have the mindset yet to not do these stupid things. I didn't even think about what I was
doing at the time. I just drank it, like we always do. And then a little while later, that
little lite bulb went off in my head, and the voice said 'what the hell did you just do'?!?!
OMG!! Chugged water the rest of the evening after that, but still , the damage was done,
and I am Still pissed about it. Really need to work on being more mindful of what I
consume.

Still drinking lots of water. Still peeing like crazy. Just once, I would like to sleep through
the night, without having to get up to pee!

Hope everyone is having a great holiday with family and friends.
(Put the fork down!!)

Hope Santa was good to everyone!

~AL~

Moving On

Not a whole lot new going on to report.

Getting ready for the Christmas holiday. Been kinda busy with that.

I think I have joined a 'challenge'. I also think I received a badge for it in my e-mail, but I'm not sure how to get it from there to here. Still somewhat challenged with this whole blog set-up thing.

Have been on the fence about this 'challenge' for some time now, always chickening out about joining. Then I would decide to do it, and miss the deadline for entering. Then, I was given another chance, and jumped at it.

Why am I doing this now?? I suck, my life sucks, my blog sucks, and my weight loss efforts Really suck. I need help. And if there is only one thing on this list that can be fixed, I'll take it! I am hoping that will lead to the rest of the things getting better. I feel a more positive attitude these last few days. Still waiting to get some info as to what I should and shouldn't be doing though.

Still getting to the gym at least five days a week. Yay!! Had a training session again today. Feeling good from that as well. Kinda bummed though, found out that next week is my last work out with my trainer. Boy, those 12 weeks sure went by fast. He did mention maybe throwing in a free session after the holidays, just to check up on me. Yeah, I need that! And I will still be going to the gym every week after that, just as I do now. I am not making much progress at this, but I know that I would make none at all, or even back-slide the other way if I didn't go or even keep trying.

I am not a quitter! I won't give up!!

In case I don't get back at ya'll later this week, Happy Holidays to everyone!!

~AL~