I HAVE Questions.....I DON'T HAVE Answers

Yesterday was weigh day.
Lost one lb this week.
Finally got to move my ticker again.
Almost forgot how, it's been so long.

I have been going to a nutritionist once a week for over a month now. She has been having me track everything I eat. Between her and my trainer, and me, of course, we cannot figure out why I have not been losing any weight. For the food I eat and the work outs I do, they even think I should have been losing some weight by now. And let me say, I have written down EVERYthing that goes into my mouth. A couple of weeks ago when I was sick, I even wrote down the cough drops I had. I wrote down the sugar free gum I chewed. I honestly write down everything. When she says "eat this and don't eat that" that's exactly what I do. And then I weigh and measure everything that I do eat. She says that part of my new lifestyle is right on track. So I was sent for blood work two weeks ago, to see if there was perhaps some underlying condition for my non-existent progress. So far they have found nothing. I have to go back again next week for more extensive testing. Oh, goody!

How-ever, this week is the last time that I get to meet with the nutritionist. For now, anyway. Her position at the clinic is only part time, and she took a full time job somewhere else. So far, they have not found a replacement for her. They said they would call to let me know when they have a new person, so I can resume my sessions. But in the meantime, I have no one. Kinda upset and worried about that.

I have checked around at other places to see if one is available. They do have some at other clinics, but then I would have to pay for it. (not in my budget at this time--between the gym membership and the trainer, things are getting kinda tight right now.) She was free for me at the clinic I go to through my dr setting it up for me. They have one at the local Y, but you have to be a member there for that. I chose the gym instead of the Y for many reasons. (not going to get into those now) Guess I will patiently wait for her to be replaced......

The good news is that both the trainer and the nutritionist think that I only need to lose about fifty lbs, not the seventy-five I was looking at. But I think I would still like to see the higher number. If I can ever get the scale to move, that is. Guess I'm not as fat as I thought I was. But still......

Having mixed thoughts about the next round of testing. Would be nice to know that there is something holding up my progress, but yet it would really suck to find out that there is something wrong with me. Not really liking this line of thinking.

Still not giving up. Meeting with the trainer again tomorrow. Can't wait for him to kick my ass. I been kickin me own ass all week. I really love my new work outs. I feel amazing! I look forward to going to the gym! How crazy is that?!

And still no new baby yet. Getting kinda tired of waiting. Should be soon though. I can't wait!

Have a good night, all.

~AL~

Been Very Busy!!!

Oh, my. I've been so very busy this past week.

Got to meet with my new trainer last week. Had an amazing workout. In fact, got my ass kicked by him again today! What an awesome workout. I'm lovin' it!! Have another appointment for next week as well. I can't wait! I am so excited! And now I know other things I can work on, on the days that I go by myself.

Weigh day still sucked this week. No movement at all on the scale, again!

Been really busy the past week with my youngest daughter. She is pregnant, and due on Halloween. Went to the doctor on Monday, and he says "any day now". So, I've been put on alert. Her husband works all kinds of goofy hours, so I will probably be the one she calls when "it's time". Plus, I will be taking care of her 2 1/2 year old while she is in the hospital. She has really been making me crazy lately. I think she is somewhat of a hypochondriac. We have been to the hospital twice in the last week, and as many times to the doctor. She also calls the clinic all the time. She is so worried that something will go wrong, she is just making herself sick with worry at this point. In fact, she just called me a little while ago, (at midnight! that's why I am up now, so I thought I would do this). I will be sooo glad when that child is here, and all of this is over. She has become my new shadow. She is afraid to be alone. The only time I get to myself is in the shower, or at the gym. Otherwise, she is always here. She comes over in the morning and sometimes, depending on her hubbies schedule, she doesn't go home. Oh, I'm Really needing a break!

I should get going now. It's almost one a.m. Need to get some rest before I get another phone call. Just wanted to do a weigh day update. Hopefully next time I will have a number to put on it.

~AL~

Just For The Record.....

I really want to clear the air and set the record straight about something that has been bothering me for about two weeks now.

I came across a blog recently that I totally enjoy reading. In fact, he is on the top of my list for the ones I check most frequently, and always keep reading. I don't like to mention names on here, but I'm not sure I can ease my mind without saying his name. I try to come up with the right words to convey exactly what I want to say, without offending any one. Because that is the Last thing I would want to do. This is NOT about offending or "calling out" this person, or anybody else.

I guess I just really feel the need to explain the name of my blog. I, by no means, am not trying to copy anyone, or be like anyone else. The day I decided to stop being a chicken, and finally start me own blog, I felt like it was do or die. If I didn't do it right when I decided to, I knew I wouldn't do it at all. I had a name all picked out, and started to set it up. Then I find out that the name I wanted was already being used. I must have tried over a dozen different ones, and all were already taken. I was getting frustrated because I just wanted to get started on here. So, I finally decided to go with a nick-name that people who know me call me. But, that is because those are actually my initials. For those of you that know me, you know that. For those of you who are reading this, and don't know me, now you know it too. AL stands for the initials of my first and last name.

I realize this has gotten entirely to wordy, but that's just me. I want to get my point across. I know that I am not anybody special or important out there in blog-land. I know that this person has seen my blog, and may or may not ever see it again. Either way is fine with me. I just wanted to set the record straight. I would rather have this person "have my back" then to be "called out" for a misunderstanding.

O k. I feel a little better now.
Thanks for listening.

~AL~

P.S.
If I knew how to change the name, I would. I can't figure that out, without starting a whole new one, and I'm not gonna do that. If I ever figure out if it is possible, then I will do it. I have never really like the name anyway.

Seriously.......WTF?!?!

Weigh day up-date:
Nothing.....AGAIN!

No loss\no gain\still the same.

I just don't get it.

What do I have to do?
Is two hours a day at the gym and workouts in the pool not enough?
Should I bust my nuts at the gym for 10 hrs a day like those people on that T V show?
And consume nothing but water all day?
Then will I lose some weight?
Twenty, maybe forty lbs a week?
It works for them, maybe I should try it. Something has got to give here!

I will hopefully be back later today. There is something I feel the need to talk about, although
it has nothing to do with my travels down this shitty road.

Heading to the gym now, for all the good it's not doing me.
Talk to ya again soon.

~AL~

Were Does The Time Go?

Wow, this week sure flew right by me. Can't believe it's already Friday.

I did extra work on Tuesday. Put my time in at the gym. Then spent another two hours working out at the pool. I knew Wednesday was going to be busy, and I probably wouldn't have time to get in any kind of work out. Good thing I did. Wednesday seemed to be one change of plans after another. Busy and busier. Got back to a normal workout on Thursday. And then again today. Feels good.

My son came home for a visit today. I am soooo happy right now. He only lives about two hours away, but he has such a busy schedule with work and all, we hardly get to see much of him. In fact, he is leaving already tomorrow afternoon. He wants to get laundry and stuff done at home before he goes back to work on Sunday. They have been short handed were he works, so he has been putting in a lot of overtime. He likes the extra money, but not the part were he only gets one day off every other week. Poor thing, he is exhausted. He works at a hospital. And since they never close, he is lucky to even get that one day off right now.

I have offered my motherly services to him. Like going to his house to do some cooking and cleaning and even laundry for him. He keeps saying "no, thank you". I just want him to be able to enjoy his free time. And he needs to prove that he can take care of himself. I get that. And I will cry tomorrow when he leaves, like I always do.

I plan on going to the gym again tomorrow. And maybe on Sunday, too. Don't want to give myself a "free day" I have heard so much about. My neighbor just told me this evening that it's not good to work out when you are sick. If I listened to that, I would have been at home in bed for the last month. I have this damn cold that is going around. In fact, it has been kicking my ass for the last four weeks now. Sweating it out Does Not seem to be working! Been taking the extra vitamins and doing everything else I can think of. Nothing is working. Hopefully it will just go away Soon!!

I can't wait for next Friday. (or, maybe I can. Not sure yet, lol). I have an appointment with a personal trainer at the gym. Kinda scared of what he will put me through, but excited to learn new things and the right way to do them. I know this will really help me, so it's all good.

Gonna get going for now. Don't want to sleep in too late tomorrow morning and miss spending any time with my son.

Have a great weekend, all.

~AL~